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There comes a point in time where you have to stpo and think about whats going on and whether things need changing. The past week for me has been all about that.

I started painting my kitchen (and cos I won 40 bucks on the lotto). Its the one place of the house I hate the most. Thats why I started there.

Ive been clearing out my spare room. And I found an old invite to my engagement party dated 17th february 2007.

17th February 2011 I finally gave up my best friend. The hardest and most painful decision of my life.

Two dates years apart. Both extremely painful to remember.

Why cant I be happy? I ask everyday! I fall in love and I end up heart broken. What is it that I do wrong in relationships? Why am I not good enough to be with? Why am I the one that is always hurt?

I hate being lonely and I miss my best friend so much.