Commercials

Just sitting here in bed with the electric blanket on, music playing tv on but on mute...

A  commercial for floor laminate came on with a chick in tight jeans and midriff top lying sexily on the floor.... Does everything need to be sexualised in this day and age? Do they realize that its mostly women that choose what style and color the floor is going to be in a house they own? I see no buff men... Its the same with ads about couches. Sorry I dont walk around my house or sit on the couch dressed like Im going to ball.... I just find it overly rediculous!

Anyway thats what got me on here to actually type.....

31.... woohoo (insert sarcasm).... Last year I deleted pretty much all of my friends from facebook because no one called to just chat or notice when I didn't post or like or do anything on facebook for 2 weeks. Best decision ever! So on Monday I got 1 text message and 0 phone calls lol The text message came from kyles mum. The friends I deleted clearly didnt know it was my bday because there was no facebook to remind them..... As for a friend that I thought we were pretty close... I didn't hear from her.... Meh.... I've been feeling for nearly 12 months that the friendship was ending anyway so Im not majorly concerned...

It just goes to show that social media isn't really doing what its supposed to. We all sit behind a screen, mostly after attention. Me, well I just post random shit and don't care if anyone responds. A bit like here. I feel like I am talking to myself. And this allows me to pretty much say what I want (within limits).

Anyway had an awesome bday weekend. Saturday visited the grandparents in victor harbor, grandpa (and everyone else) kicked my arse at mini golf and had a pub meal. Amazing weather! Saturday night headed to hogs breath with a couple of friends. 3 long island ice teas and $100 worth of food just for myself I was pretty happy! Played darts and ping pong at my house for the rest of the night. Sunday spent the day at kyles lazing in the backyard doing sweet fuck all. Was bliss. Monday work, and then went to the pub for tea... Was probably one of the best bdays ever... Simple = perfect.

I started a new job.. Or is it a new position? The place I worked for got bought out. It took me over 2 months to decide to go to the new place... Why? Its at outer harbor. 45 minute drive each way and 65kms in 1 day..... After finally realising there isnt a lot out there I decided I'd just deal with it. I get up at ungodly hours and get home by 4.30. I had to buy a "work" car. My ford, though I love the girl, just uses too much petrol. Kyle found me a 2 door hatch, 3 cylinder, manual charade... I call her buzzy, since she requires a new exhaust lol. She is loud! and she is a gutless bitch but by god is she cheap on petrol. And since she's a manual I automatically think she is a race car lol she is sooooo not a race car..

But my job is good. I like it. The place sux but the position is ok. For the money I am earning its worth it. Salary though, which means monthly pay! So far so good.... 2 weeks to go till next pay.... We shall see... Buzzy helps :P 6 month probation, which means Im definitely not going racing anytime soon. Kind of grateful the team doesnt have sponsorship, because I don't want to be stuck home while they all race. Very selfish I know! Seriously miss it!

I am crocheting a blanket (yes I turned 31 not 71) this is keeping me busy when I am absolutely bored shitless! Though got the divergent books for my bday... Thats a weekend just there!

Lost my train of thought because I had to get dan to bed...

Speaking of which, how does one 11 year old boy have such smelly feet! Its putrid! Cant imagine teenager smell soon enough. He will be sleeping outside I think!

So since I have no best friend that is a girl, I have no where to discuss the trivial things girls talk about.... Like girl problems, or guys with such amazing eyes it catches your breath.

I decided Kyle was good enough to speak to about both but its just not the same! Because omg this guy was hot! I was caught off guard thats for sure lol

It was at work and I just process paperwork without really paying much attention. When I handed the paperwork back and actually looked I looked directly into these amazing blue eyes. It floored me! When he had left I was like woah.... Then spent the rest of the day fantasizing about it. Truck driver Les really didnt understand when I said omg there was a hot guy... I need more friends... That are girls lol

Well its nearly 9pm which means its now bed time (31 not 71 lol). Its been swell blog! And whomever reads my pointless dribble... Till next time!

Still alive! Bored but alive!

Im at work. And its boring as ever. Christmas means a quiet time. So instead of twiddling thumbs figured I might just post on here.

June was the last time I posted. Ummm not a lot has happened.

Went to bathurst. It was great! The suspended race was shit but the rest was great. And not as cold I'd expected. Can remove that from my bucket list.

Went for a drive around mallala in a v8. Seriously loved it and want to go back again!
Just as I got my confidence up it was time to finish. Will eventually upload the onboard footage. Not something I wabt to remove From the bucket list. I want to go again and again and again.

Daniel is 11. And nearly as tall as me. Fits my shoes and has a teenager attitude. So much to look forward to!

I have 7 chickens and a broody sitting on 10 eggs which are due to hatch next Wednesday. Im hoping it works out well and I get a couple of hens out of it. I really want a chicken that lays blue eggs.

Thank you for reminding me of a past I wish to forget. The tracker logs which pages people read. Silly me followed. Cheers for that!

I find it very hypocritical that you freely read about my mundane life but I'm blocked from yours. Its ridiculous. You wanna know stuff about my life? Then contact me. Dont  want to walk away. That easy!

Im out. Christmas sux. Will need a new job in the new year and racing will be slim next year. Very disappointed. Oh and I'm stacking on weight! Yay!

Have a merry Christmas and a happy new year. Back to boredom... fogot my phone charger :-(

Its freezing!

One thing for certain! I still seriously hate this thing we call winter. Adelaide weather currently sucks extreme dogs balls.

It has been quite some time since I have written a blog. I would really like to blame the fact my son won't ever get off the damn laptop. But it is a shit excuse.

So whats been happening.

In February my mum finally met Kyle as we had my uncles wedding down at victor and my mum and aunty flew from Bundy for it. I would love to say it was a horrible time and my mother said she didn't like Kyle but nope. They got along like a house on fire!

We raced at clipsal. Dean did really well until the last race where we had a DNF because he lost 2nd gear. Would have been ok if it wasn't sequencial gearbox. He could have just skipped the gears.

Haven't done anymore racing this year due to sponsorship. Just waiting for October for the greatest race of the year! Bathurst baby! Can not wait! And the way the year is flying it will be here before I know it!

Then it was my 30th. The one day of the year I was dreading! I was having slight anxiety attacked just thinking about it! But alas it came along even though I willed it away. Month of planning for the actual event. Was a really good night. Except for the fact I spent it rather sober.

I bought a polaroid camera just for it. And throughout the night people took photos and hung them up on the clothes line. It was an awesome idea (by Kyle) and now I have many photos of the event.

April saw Dan and I flying to Bundy for easter. Kyle even came up for a few days (despite the 7 hour train ride). It was a good weekend. Wish he couldve been there longer but his work were being arses. Lots of fishing, lots of prawn and crab and sunshine. Read the hunger games series and it was just what I needed.

Not alot happened in May. Nikki went away on holidays for 2 weeks to I pretty much ran work on my own.

June.... The most horrible month of the year (I realise the year isnt close to finishing yet but I can assure you its going to be the worst). A few weeks ago I had root canal treatment. Which should be pretty straight forward, well you would think so. The dentist over drilled my tooth and when putting the cleaning solution in it when into my cheek. Literally inside my cheek. The dentist didn't even know what was happening and I ended up in hospital then the dental hospital who said that I had a chemical burn happening in my face. If I could explain just how painful it was that wouldn't do it justice. I was on endone and ice packs for days. And still on pain killers now (not endone obviously). Theres nothing that can be done once it starts. Just pain relief. Whats worse is it could be permanent. I still cant smile properly and still in huge about of pain. The bruises have just started to show. Anyway the root canal gets finished next week (I begged for them just to rip the fucken thing out) the dental hospital specialist will be doing it this time. As for my face. Wont know til September, so for now I just look like Ive had a stroke. The chiro however did put my jaw back where it should be.

July.... Dans bday. 11 this year. Acts like a 16yo. And has an extremely bad attitude! Not doing a lot this year. I made a deal that we will go to the show instead.

Kyle and I are doing well. Supposed to be saving for a house. But we aren't getting very far with that at this stage. And while that isn't happening theres no wedding happening either. I would obviously like for these side of things to move faster then it is. Considering its been 6 years...

Anyway laptop is telling me I have 10% left so I best go feed the animals and go to bed.

I'll try to update a little sooner next time. But wont promise that!

I've been procrastinating....

I think nearly everyday that I should post a blog, and then I just don't do it. Despite that there has been a few things happening. I think because I post in facebook a lot that I just don't need this outlet anymore.

Or perhaps its the fear I will write a vent and someone I don't want to see it will. I am really unsure. But here I am, cranking some Paramore and forcing myself to finally write something worthwhile.

We raced at Ipswich, nothing remarkable happened. Weather was warm one day and cold and raining the next. I do love QLD, and I miss it immensely. Its been ages since I've been up to Bundaberg to see mum.

Our next race was Winton, Dean was doing great! He qualified well and got 3rd in one of the races (due to quite a lot of cars hitting an oil patch and carnage happened). Very proud of him!

 So we were all stoked for the next race, and well it didn't end so well.

Dean rolled the car, he is fine and I didn't actually see the accident, and I am quite glad I didn't because it was quite nerve racking.

 Surprisingly there wasn't a lot of damage to the car, broken fibreglass, a bent upright and cracked wheel.

So we put her back together for the next race, he finished 16th. A very draining weekend in deed. The joys of motor racing. I convinced Dean and his dad to leave the car at my house over the break so that I can fix it (Deans dad is really busy building a new house and fixing the shed as well as running his business). So she came to live at my house :-) Hell exciting! Kym showed me how to fibreglass, which Kyle and I then sanded and put back into the right shape, then bogged the car, and then sanded the whole car! It took about 2 and a half weeks before Kym could take it to paint.....

She doesn't look too bad! This week she is off to get new livery and will be back in my shed in no time, ready for spanner check, brake flush, and wheel alignment and she will be ready for Gold Coast! I am seriously looking forward to this event, 1 its QLD 3 my favorite track and 3 Im staying an extra day (hoping to get after party tickets for the Sunday). We held an auction for advertising space on the bonnet for the round, I thought it would have done a lot better but meh, can't say no to any amount of money at this point in time, hopefully do better next round.

Thoroughly looking forward to my break from Daniel as well as Kyle. Just need some me time. Work has been really slow until last week where I am back to doing 5 hours day. Money has been tight due to doing about 10-15 hours a week. It will be nice to have some money again. Though it won't last long.

Next year is my 30th and though I would like to start organizing what I am doing for it, I have to wait for the race calendar to make sure we aren't racing on my bday weekend. I have big plans for 2014, Im planning on buying tickets for paramore this week, then rocky horror picture show stage show in March, I want a girls night out shooting guns at the gun range for my 30th, then a gathering at my house (because the stupid fringe kind of ruins any chance of hiring a place) with either a band or DJ and a spit. I'd also like to go to bathurst, but I guess we shall see about that. Rumor has it that the aussie race cars will be in Darwin next year which I would love! Really want to go to Perth but will be happy with Darwin! Its been too many years!

Our last round of the year is at Homebush, been quite a few years since Ive been there.... I am however looking forward to it! Kyle is coming along, and he thinks he's just there to watch ahahaha Im going to make him work! Payback is a bitch! He will now be MY apprentice!

Daniel is 10! We made it! Teacher says he is getting better at school which is good! Now if only he got better at home! Hes doing funk dance lessons this year. I need him to have an outlet to burn energy and since all he does is dance around the house he may as well do it well! Can not believe he will be in grade 5 next year and there's not much left of this year!

My grandfather turns 80 in February and we are having a reunion in April up in bundaberg to celebrate it. Rest assured I am dragging Kyle along with me and he gets to meet my entire family! Though he will meet majority of them at my uncles wedding in february at victor harbor. Wont be such a shock to the system ;-)

I bought an exercise bike. Time to lose a few extra kilos. I watch my shows and I ride the bike. I average 40 -60 mins before my arse gets sore from the seat. I am hoping that eventually I will get used to it and be able to ride it for hours!

My best friend had an "episode" the other day, she couldn't understand what she was reading, and couldn't form sentences, when she finally went to the hospital they sent her home saying it might have been a migraine or a mini stroke. Quite scary! Sucks being a 40 minute driver from her.

I think thats all I really have to say. My life revolves around racing, working, and cleaning the house....


Ciao


PS: When you read this (which I know you still do), may I suggest you try 'The Last of Us' game for the PS3. Its a bit violent but a very good game. Got really high ratings.

Finally remembered my password

Well realistically it wasn't the password that was a problem it was the login.. My bad!

Half way through 2013 already... Where to begin

Christmas was pretty mediocre, went down to victor and spent it with my grandparents and uncle...

Bday was pretty meh, got dressed up and no one took a picture of it..

Im working with a different race team this year. Cottrell racing. Dean (my driver) is pretty good. Great to work with. So far we have only done Clipsal and a day at Mallala but in a few weeks HELLO Ipswich!!! Missing racing and missing the warm weather.

Dans nearly 10... Its come around way to fast. Disgusting behavior and attitude! No matter what I do nothing works. Really quite fed up with it. Hes off to see his dad for 2 weeks very soon and I am looking forward to my break.

Still working in Admin. Its pretty cruisey but the hours are low lately as there isnt a lot of work at the moment. Not sure how we are surviving the bills and food and most of all petrol!

Not much more to report....

 My Unique journey with La Femme

And then me trying to drive the car!

Massive fail on my part!

And once again it ends

My relationship has once again failed. I wanted to much. 3 hearts are broken. Dans not handling it very well. Trying to be strong for him but its killing me. I dont know how to make it better for him. Im extremely lost,all Ive dreamed of for the last 12 months is spending my life with this guy. No job no boyfriend. Other then Dan there isnt much to live for :-(

You dont post for a while....

And blogger changes everything! Anywho, just got back from a wonderful wedding in qld on Wednesday night, then off to Melb on this coming Wednesday for a race at Phillip island. Its rather quite tiring organizing flights and babysitters and actually getting to the airport. But Im living the dream! Work is good, I feel that Im not there a lot. But its a wonderful place to work for and so many different things to fix. The love life is ok. Dont know what to expect from it really. Its not really going to go anywhere. Well not the direction I want it to anyway. But we shall see. By March next year I will be fully qualified and hopefully be offered with a full time job with the race team in melb. One can only hope! Not a lot to report even though my life is so crazily busy. Its work, race team and dan.

what a busy month

I had clipsal then my birthday and other birthdays and speedway and every weekend was full except last weekend.
And this weekend I am off to Bathurst for a motorsport weekend. Unfortunately I have a 7 hour wait at sydney airport on thursday waiting for the driver and team manager to turn up. Its the price you pay for cheap air line tickets!

So much has happened but I cant remember what lol.

Oh I got a job! Finally!!!!! Anyway I have to go finish packing for the weekend!

Big week

Its been ages since I have been on here. But will update it all later!http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif

This week is clipsal and I am on a aussie race team called La Femme Motorsport as their head mechanic. Here is a pic


And here is a link to our news coverage. here

Im finally back online!

I have been MIA lately because I blew up the computer and then had no Internet but now I am back!

Not much to report, still not working, still on workcover etc etc. Bought a new car....

I have a couple of pics to share.

its me its me

So tired

I have to wait to see if I what I want to post on here is allowed. So waiting for the media guy to get back to me!!! 5 pages of goodness! Cant wait to see the pics!

yay

Its out in the media so I can tell everyone!


HERE

What I have learnt

1 Do not put your foot next to a brown snake

2 You can not fly away from said snake

Would just like to say

At this point in time my life is amazing!

Oh and I haven't smoked in a week!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG

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The dress is horrid but it worked YAY

Would like to point out

That my life is fucken amazing right now!!!

so its been a month

Since they put me on the happy pills.....

And life is great!!! Now if only I could find a job then life would be fucken fantastic!!!!

exciting!!

New tatt!!! And no one to tell me off! Feels great! Its on my bony wrist!

Geocaching

Found my first geocache today! Its rather exciting!

wanna know what it is go here

sigh

back on antidepressants....

Soooooo.....

Was just looking up on my site tracker and clicked on see entry clicks... someone was looking up "Australian Lesbian Sex" forgot I put that as one of my headings just for traffic.... Clearly it worked lol and you made my day so thank you!

I dont have much to report. Well nothing that really needs to be said that isnt complaining or sad or just plain anger. Wont do anyone good to read it. And it doesnt help me by saying it!

There is a song that pretty much sums it all up however here quite powerful words! And her voice is quite amazing!

Ive also been reading up on alcoholics... Excuses Alcoholics Make was great. And as I read through it all I just kept saying yep yep yep thats all the things he's done and what hes currently doing. And no wonder he feels no remorse or guilt of what he has and is putting me through.

Last week he was sending me suicidal emails and this week according to Twitter his life is great. Ummm universe when do you think that karma will bite him on the arse? What is it with people that tend to ruin some part of my life end up happy? At what stage of my life are you going to throw me some happy? Cos right now I could really use some. And with all this work cover bullshit it would seem it wont be happening anytime soon because you wont let me move on. *sigh* A new male best friend wouldnt go astray right now. I miss talking about cars, girls, sport, random crap that women dont talk about. I love my friends but surely they are sick of what Im putting them through.

And a date! A date would be awesome its been 3 years since I had a date.... And of course sex would be ideal as well. Im only human and I miss human contact. Perhaps I should bite the bullet and buy a cat... Turn into the crazy cat lady that I have been threatening my friends with.

I have a job interview on Monday which is great! A nice little family owned business... Right up my Alley... Unfortunately workcover wont let me take the job. They will not detach me from where I work already.... So even if they offer me the job I can not take it.

And I downright refuse to go back to the hell hole. I could not spend 12 months in a place I loath with people that loath me. So I get to sit at home going more and more insane everyday. I cant afford to get out the house everyday.... And here I sit on a saturday night conversing with a computer screen! Yay me!

*Sigh* I wasnt going to come on here and vent I really wasnt....

If you have a iphone and play words with friends look me up: Knickers1984 I could use some more friends to play with to keep me busy!

I havent been sleeping well.....

For about 2 months maybe 3 I have not had a good run with sleeping (unless of course I drink 3/4's of a bottle of 42 below :P). My brain has been working overtime and sometimes its taking 2-3 hours before I actually get to sleep. So I thought I would type shit out before going to bed to see if that would help....

I have been off work for 5 weeks. After putting up with their shit for the past 3 years I finally snapped and the doctor put me on stress leave. Its unusual for me not to just ignore shit that people say and do. But this has affected me in a way that sometimes I cant even explain. I've been made to believe that I am a useless mechanic. And at one point my answer to this was that this wasnt my fault that this is their fault because Im not getting the training that I need.

I lost all confidence and became physically ill because of it. And so 5 mundane boring weeks off work... What does one do?

Renovate the kitchen!!!! It looks superb and Im much happier with it thats for sure!
Ive been doing online training for Honda. We are suppose to get time to do it at work but since Im a single mother and can not go to Melbourne for the practical training that fel like there was no need for me to do the online training. Which has been very frustrating. So I have been doing the modules at home. Knocked off six modules yesterday....

Other then that not a lot has been happening. A lot of meetings and doc visits to attend of course. And my workcover claim hasnt been accepted. I dont really care if it is or isnt as long as the mediation is completed and the business gets its act together.. They still can not see what they have done wrong. And are stuck in an era that they need to get out of.

You cant have employees going around randomly pinching people so hard that it leaves a bruise, or single someone out and make them do mundane tasks like cleaning roller doors. Or calling someone fucken useless or to shut their fucken mouth.

It will be very interesting to see how it goes when I go back to the workshop....

Easter long weekend my friend and I and 4 kids all up will be driving to pt lincoln. Clearly we are on a suicide mission, but it will be nice to get away for a while. Go fishing and site seeing and nooooo internet!

Dan has a really bad attitude problem at the moment. And Im unsure as to what to do about it.

Celebrated my birthday the other week. Was good to have humans in my house! Got quite a few presents that I love.

Struggling on the money front because Im being paid an average of the last 12 months of my earnings and it doesnt work out to be what I normally get unfortunately. But thanks to dream boy, boogeyman, douche bag what ever you want to call him, for lending me money (yes LENDING, he says not to pay it back... pffft).

And to speak of the douche bag... Things are still iffy and weird and frustrating.... I dont think either of us knows just what to do now. He wants me in his life, but not a relationship (what is it with this friggen generation?) but I want the relationship.... And lately all we seem to do is argue and I think that has a lot to do with the fact Im not at work. But Im not sure. I love him no matter what...

Mum lost her job, the place sold up and the new company didnt need the employees. So she is stressing about that at the moment.

Lots of pregnancy announcements (crazy people)...

Had my graduation last night.. Got my cert 3 in my hot little hands now I just need my qualification.... 10 months and 20 days to go (Im not counting at all :P)

Winter is setting in... Hate it and always will!!!

I think thats all Ive got to say... I dont think its going to help much but I am extremely tired since I had a late night last night with douche bag.... Though coffee in bed this morning made it worth it!

:(

There comes a point in time where you have to stpo and think about whats going on and whether things need changing. The past week for me has been all about that.

I started painting my kitchen (and cos I won 40 bucks on the lotto). Its the one place of the house I hate the most. Thats why I started there.

Ive been clearing out my spare room. And I found an old invite to my engagement party dated 17th february 2007.

17th February 2011 I finally gave up my best friend. The hardest and most painful decision of my life.

Two dates years apart. Both extremely painful to remember.

Why cant I be happy? I ask everyday! I fall in love and I end up heart broken. What is it that I do wrong in relationships? Why am I not good enough to be with? Why am I the one that is always hurt?

I hate being lonely and I miss my best friend so much.

Had an amazing weekend!

Obsessed much?????

Well

Clearly I got home. And though it wasnt much of a holiday it was an amazing experience. I got hundreds of pictures.

Its very devastating for the people that lost homes and photos and live stock. Wouldnt wish it upon anyone. And there is nothing you can do as you watch the waters increase no amount of sand bagging would of prevented the amount of water that flooded Bundaberg.

Im happy to be home but yet unhappy because it would of been nice to stay and help people clean up after the flood. Though I doubt that I would be able to stomach the smell. It was putrid on saturday let alone what it would be like now. The smell of rotting cane is very unpleasant!

Back to work. Didnt miss it at all. Time to start looking else where. Not to mention the stomach pain returned as soon as I returned to work. So something needs to be done about it!

Dans good we all got a bit cabin feverish while stuck in the house up in bundy so its nice that he will be going to the farm this weekend so that we can have a small break from one another.

The one person I really wanted to see when I returned doesnt want to see me. I'm very disappointed. And it hurts a lot.

Ah well lets home that 2011 is better then last year!

Worst new years ever

well

Its near at the bridge
Road to southside over new bridge is closed
Road to shops and old bridge to south side closed. We cant leave that way and cant go north. Stuck here

Ahhh so

When your wife isnt there you look at my cam but when she is there ya wont go near it!!!!

Funny!