When one gets bored...

One types... Well I do anyway.

Its been such a long time since I have had the courage of sitting down and actually typing since the ex has been fucking with my head... But whatever.. If he gets his jollies out of reading about my mundane life then good luck to him!!!

Well its November. Its nearly the end of another year and nearly another year older.

27 and single..... Still

And I am unsure why that bothers me...Do women just get this fear at some point in their life that they are going to be alone for the rest of their lives... I have always said that if I am single still at 30 I am going to live a spinsters life. But angry cat lady from the simpsons is where it will more likely head.

And its not that I want to live with anyone. I actually like my space and independence.... But sitting on a computer every night is getting kind of boring and lonely. Granted I could find other things to do! Like read a book or finish off the dolls house I started many years ago... I think I just crave normal adult interaction..
Which brings me to my next subject... I get this feeling that no one wants me at work (which Ive always had my suspicions about) But considering no one talks to me lately its kind of getting depressing... Kyle doesnt even bother talking to me anymore... Im growing to really despise that place. Just call them dodgey brothers. There idea on safety is a joke... Absolute complete joke and even my union rep agrees with me! I need to get out of there.. And I am disappointed that Bundaberg Honda doesnt have a position for me. I would be out of adelaide so fast there would be no time for goodbyes...

A few weeks ago I was so over being a mother that I caved and let Daniels dads family take dan for a weekend... He loved it. Which is good. And I enjoyed having some peace and quiet. So now the plan is that we do it once a month. I still dont trust them but Dan and I need to have breaks from one another and he needs male influence and his uncle is the best thing for him at this stage. But its bringing up questions about his father again. How do you explain to a 7yo that his father wants nothing to do with him? Or that if he had the chance he would steal him? I just keep explaining to him that if his dad wanted to see him that he would be here.... Its all I can do at this stage...

My christmas shopping is nearly completed... Just need to get barry and andrea a present each and Im pretty much done... Other then mum and wayne but I have an idea for them :P Daniel is getting a trampoline. And its pretty cool because it has LED lights on it... Can see me on their during the night lol I dont know what santa is bringing me at this stage. Oh Daniels other family bought him a bike which he has been begging for. But I have been very good at keeping that secret lol

Tomorrow night I am going to the SA FM's No suprise singles party... The idea is that you display a sign of a secret that you dont tell for a long time in a new relationship... Well I pretty much chose a secret that I havent really told anyone.... My sign will say: Was once homeless. Not a time I like to talk about but I got tickets out of it lol. Guess I have to put on a brave face :P

But it did get me thinking about that time. And exactly how stupid I was! A 16yo girl hitch hiking and meeting strangers just so I had somewhere to sleep. And not to mention the hell that I would of put my mother through since she had no way of contacting me or finding me...

I went and got a second opinion about my illness. And the guy I saw said it wasnt pancreatitis at all. Fantastic! Wasted months of not drinking lol I guess you can say Ive made up for it lol.... But alas Im still losing weight. From 78kgs in December to 66kgs but it usually hangs around 68kgs. But Im not doing anything differently so I dont understand how I am losing more weight. HOWEVER.... Summer is coming and I usually lose weight.... So something will need to be done soon. Or I will waste away to nothing.

I bought a laptop! Best decision ever... Though I do need to stop buying shit! Thats it I swear... Well I would like a new car but I will have to wait and save for that... I would really like to get a CRX but because its a sports car and only has two seats Im thinking I will keep the pulsar as well. I dunno... I just really want air con and power steering lol which yes I could install on the pulsar but really couldnt be fucked!

Kyles not having much luck lately... And somehow I seem to be there to witness or get the tail end of it... A few months ago I was driving past his house and someone had run into his fence... was the second time in 6 months. And it was a messy insurance thing... Then they finally got it fixed a month or so ago and bought a new letterbox.. Three days later I decided to go on an extended road test and witnessed the postman fall off his bike and run into the letterbox which broke and he just drove off.. Let me assure you I didnt get much thanks from kyle considering the letterbox cost 200 bucks and they got 700 out of aust post... Then kyles mother is going through a midlife crisis.. And bought an Integra Type S. So today after I picked up Dan I noticed these two cars had been in a prang then I noticed kyles mums car... She had been rear ended in the new car. But not as badly as the third car! So yeah hes not happy BUT then again he hasnt been happy for a month so therefore I havent seen him for a month. And I really cant be bothered pursuing that friendship. Which makes work interesting lol.

Ah well Im going to look for a new job in January cos Ive really had enough.

Well Im sure I have bored you all to tears and Ive pretty much got out all I wanted to.

Wish me luck for tomorrow night!!!

Ciao

PS sorry about spellin mistakes... CBF changing them