sigh

back on antidepressants....

Soooooo.....

Was just looking up on my site tracker and clicked on see entry clicks... someone was looking up "Australian Lesbian Sex" forgot I put that as one of my headings just for traffic.... Clearly it worked lol and you made my day so thank you!

I dont have much to report. Well nothing that really needs to be said that isnt complaining or sad or just plain anger. Wont do anyone good to read it. And it doesnt help me by saying it!

There is a song that pretty much sums it all up however here quite powerful words! And her voice is quite amazing!

Ive also been reading up on alcoholics... Excuses Alcoholics Make was great. And as I read through it all I just kept saying yep yep yep thats all the things he's done and what hes currently doing. And no wonder he feels no remorse or guilt of what he has and is putting me through.

Last week he was sending me suicidal emails and this week according to Twitter his life is great. Ummm universe when do you think that karma will bite him on the arse? What is it with people that tend to ruin some part of my life end up happy? At what stage of my life are you going to throw me some happy? Cos right now I could really use some. And with all this work cover bullshit it would seem it wont be happening anytime soon because you wont let me move on. *sigh* A new male best friend wouldnt go astray right now. I miss talking about cars, girls, sport, random crap that women dont talk about. I love my friends but surely they are sick of what Im putting them through.

And a date! A date would be awesome its been 3 years since I had a date.... And of course sex would be ideal as well. Im only human and I miss human contact. Perhaps I should bite the bullet and buy a cat... Turn into the crazy cat lady that I have been threatening my friends with.

I have a job interview on Monday which is great! A nice little family owned business... Right up my Alley... Unfortunately workcover wont let me take the job. They will not detach me from where I work already.... So even if they offer me the job I can not take it.

And I downright refuse to go back to the hell hole. I could not spend 12 months in a place I loath with people that loath me. So I get to sit at home going more and more insane everyday. I cant afford to get out the house everyday.... And here I sit on a saturday night conversing with a computer screen! Yay me!

*Sigh* I wasnt going to come on here and vent I really wasnt....

If you have a iphone and play words with friends look me up: Knickers1984 I could use some more friends to play with to keep me busy!